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I play guitar and love to write. mostly stories, sometimes poetry with the occasional drawing.

Current Residence: College
Favorite genre of music: Rock
Favorite style of art: Any
Operating System: Windows 7
MP3 player of choice: Creative Zen
Favorite cartoon character: Shunsui Kyoraku, Fuu, Hidan
  • Mood: Hurt
  • Listening to: One Track mind by Motorhead
  • Reading: Fanfiction
  • Watching: Metal Mania
  • Playing: Nothing
  • Eating: Peaches ;)
  • Drinking: Nothing
    I am so beyond confused, man. Normally, I would talk to someone about my problems, but this time around, there really is nobody. Not really because I have nobody who will listen, but because of what I've done the passed few hours isn't really something my friends and family would approve of. It is nothing illegal, and this post is more for my personal feelings, rather than anyone's concern. Here, I think I have one friend whom I know in real life, and he isn't the person to share things like this, so I'm not worried.
    Anyway, A while ago, I had a pretty bad breakup, and worse than anything, I lost my best friend all in one shot. Until a week or so ago, we hadn't talked at all. Things speaking to her were pretty awkward at first, though soon went back to normal, like when we were friends. She wanted to see me, so we met somewhere, and she comes up with an idea which I agree on: Buy a hotel room for two nights, for obvious reasons. We go through all the time up until then, and everything is fine, she's really excited. When she gets here though, I can see she's not comfortable, though she insists she isn't. I figure maybe she's just a bit nervous. Before things went too far, I asked if she was sure, and if we should stop. She nodded, and got dressed again, as did I. Even though I said I'd sleep in the other bed, she still wanted to go. So she went. Now, she would barely speak to me, then she came out and said that she had slept with someone else prior to coming to see me.  I kept calm, though I was quite upset, and asked if we could meet so I could talk to her about it, tell her that Im glad she at least said something, and that I wouldn't let it getting in the way of being friends. She refused. I don't think I'm wrong for choosing to not try again. She obviously doesn't want to be my friend. I don't understand why it is so hard to be friends after a breakup. This is the first time it hasn't gone well, for me.  They may not be as strong as they used to be, but I am still friends with all the passed ones. I'm not really sure what I did wrong.

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MegaDarkly Featured By Owner 3 days ago  Hobbyist General Artist
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